there is always the tiniest sliver of light. We may think the darkness is absolute, the light snuffed and smothered, the lamp extinguished.
And yet, the light is always there.
My soul has been in despair, in a darkness that felt so absolute, I couldn't see even that tiniest sliver. But-
it. was. there.
all along.
For a long time now, I've stumbled my way through this life that I simply do not want. I wake up most mornings filled with dread, still shocked 6 1/2 years later that THIS is my life. I isolate, create distance, hide. I've even gone so far as to try and hide from God. And while it may not look like that to those around me, because I'm still standing and didn't deny the existence of a God who allowed me to have all of those beautiful children and that precious family life knowing that in one single instant it would all be reduced to ashes...
I did. I tried to hide.
But today, because He loves me and someone else that loves me listened to the prompting of the Holy Spirit, I remembered. I really remembered.
He surrounds me and I am simply never alone.
I cannot go anywhere that He is not with me.
He knew before He formed me, before He knit me together in my mother's womb-
He knew all that would be and all that will be.
And in His great love and faithfulness, He wove the earthly tapestry of love and faith that would carry me in all the days, the beautiful, the messy, the lonely and most of all - the earth shattering, heartbreaking, soul crushing days of being a grieving mother.
Even in darkness, I will find the light.
Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?
If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
If i rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,
even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.
If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,"
even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.
Psalm 139 : 7 -12
Becca -
we may be cousins by birth, but you-
you are my sister in Christ and that is even more precious.
Bless your beautiful soul for your faithfulness,
kindness and grace.
The Christ light you radiate is so very bright and lovely.
And your gift to me was exactly what the Holy Spirit knew I needed.
You listened.
Thank you.
All my love,
clan mac mama
Even in Darkness by Morgan Cheek is a grief devotional born of the faith and pain of another grieving mama. Becca gifted it to me and it inspired me to write this post.
Even in Darkness by Morgan Cheek is a grief devotional that my beautiful cousin Becca gifted to me.
